Bébé Maybe

Well, unfortunately the pandemic itself has not improved. It's only gotten worse. I don't think anyone (besides maybe a few really smart epidemiologists?) ever thought the whole world could shut down over a disease. In other news, I feel like we did make a tiny bit of progress on our journey. We met online with a doctor from the other clinic we were considering. It's never a fun process to slowly go over all of your myriad health issues that could prevent you from having children. I did NOT enjoy being reminded of all of that all at once. Wow, we are messed up. The first bit of good news is that this doctor seemed very knowledgable about our specific situations. She seemed to have experience treating the things we're dealing with, and already had a plan to adapt our treatment accordingly. I really like the other clinic because they're very nice and only 5 minutes from my house, but there was no plan in place to change any protocols to fit our unique issue...

Really??? After over 3 years, we finally came close enough to actually getting treatment that we could almost see it, almost be happy about it. And then some idiot in China ate a bat, and now who knows if we can ever even have kids. I swear, if that is the reason this never happens... Well, a lot has changed in a week. Literally the entire world is shut down. Schools, restaurants, stores, everything is closed. Indefinitely. That's the part that kills me, the fact that there is no end date. I get that no one can predict when it will be safe to reopen, but that just kills any tiny ounce of hope that I had left. We were already considering looking into doing our IVF cycle at a different clinic, and I was thrilled to see that they were just about the only fertility still open during Corona panic time. Our main concern about exploring this one as an option was the location- it's an hour away. But since I'm not working right now, that doesn't matter anymore. It s...