Bébé Maybe

I made it through the stim shots. I'm pretty proud of myself. I'm tired and my stomach is covered in bruises, but I made it. I made it through 4am wake-up calls and making it to appointments before long days at work. I made it through the stress of going through this process while juggling working full-time, subbing for additional classes, teaching dance 2 days a week, and dog-sitting. After my appointment this morning I waited faithfully by my phone for the call that would tell me whether I needed to come in again or whether to prepare for the egg retrieval. Of course, the call didn't come until I was sitting on a 100 year old train surrounded by other people on the way to an apple orchard. The response was the latter- I got instructions to take the trigger shot tonight for a Monday retrieval. It will be on the 28th- happy anniversary to us. I'm trying to be happy that we at least made it to this point because that's not a guarantee. But I'm sad and disappointe...

It's been a week. Tuesday was day 1 of IVF cycle #2. We woke up at 4:30am to get to our clinic in Illinois before work. I had a 6:30 appointment, and I ended up having to wait a whole hour before my appointment even started. That's never happened before, I usually never have to wait at all. I was stressing out pretty hardcore because I told my work I would only be a few minutes late and get there by 8:10, and David had a 9am meeting he couldn't miss.  Thankfully David ended up being only few minutes late. But I didn't get to work until after 9:30 and it was chaos when I got there. I had to sub for another teacher (with no lesson plans) and I was exhausted by the end of the day. After school I had multiple errands to run, including my second blood test of the day and stopping at the Falls rec. department in preparation for yet another job that was starting the next day. I finally got home 12 hours after I left. I did my first shot that night. Wednesday was a normal work ...

 September is shaping up to be the busiest month of my life. I honestly have no idea if I will be able to mentally/physically handle it. Our next round of IVF will most likely start in less than a week. That will mean shots, medications, and all of the side effects... plus at least 6 visits to the clinic in Illinois. Right now we're planning on going the clinic before work. That means leaving the house at 5:30 to get there at 6:30, and rushing right to work to be there close to 8am. I'm worried about getting enough sleep to be able to physically function. One of the medications last time caused insomnia. I would wake up at between 2-4am and not be able to fall back asleep. It wasn't a big deal last time because I could sleep as much as I wanted during the day. This time... not so much. Besides working full-time (7:50-3:50), I am subbing for 2 Hebrew classes this month. I have to prepare those extra lessons every day. As if that's not enough... dance starts next week. I...