Bébé Maybe

It just keeps getting better! Watching her gradually become more alert is so fun. At 5 weeks old, she smiled at David for the first time. It was the first time he'd gone into the office since she was born. When he came home and went to say hi to her, she was happy to see him. :) At 6 weeks old, I got my first smile. It was after the 6am feeding. I put her down in the crib to go grab something. When I came back she smiled when she saw me. :) Both were heart melting moments. <3 She's still pretty sleepy but she's starting to smile more and more. It's usually around dinner time that she's the most awake. Sometimes she'll start getting wiggly and it seems like she wants to play/interact. I've started putting her on her play mat for tummy time when that happens and usually read her a book. I was expecting her to be eating more at this point, but she's still on the same schedule that she was at 1 month old. 3.5 ounces every 3 hours, like clockwork. I can te...

It's been one year since the worst days of our lives. I've already written about what happened, but it's therapeutic to keep writing about it and I wanted to include some more detail.  I saw someone else who'd lost a baby think of it this way- on their birthdays, don't think of it as another year without them. Think of it as one year closer to being with them again. That's what I'm holding onto. One year closer to being with my baby Christian David again someday. I don't know how I could get through this anniversary without having his 6 week old baby sister here in my arms. This year we have survived a lot of horrible things, gotten through the stress of another pregnancy, and have done a lot of healing. I pray that we can continue to heal from our great loss while at the same time find great joy in the miracle of our daughter. February 9th, 2021 PPROM I started feeling weird the night before. It was a pressure feeling. I thought it was either growing pa...