Things never go quite according to plan, do they?
My plan for a while was to go to a doctor once I got back to the U.S., get a check-up, and make a game plan.
I've been in the U.S. for 3 months now and am no closer to making anything happen.
Positive: I have insurance now. It's the poor people kind for the unemployed. Basic medical care is free, but it doesn't cover everything.
Negative: It doesn't happen to cover anything related to infertility (ew I hate even typing that word). That means we can't get the ball rolling until there are paychecks coming in.
Positive: Paychecks will be coming in soon. David got a job! It's a good job with a good salary.
Negative: We have some BIG expenses coming up. We need our own place to live, another car, furniture, etc. I can't get a job in the near future. I'm getting a pretty major knee surgery in a few weeks. I won't be able to walk at all for a few months. That will also delay going to any other kind of doctor while I recover.
Positive: I'm still in my 20s.
Negative: I just had kind of a gross birthday. I'm 29. Part of the reason that number scares me is because I know from here on out it gets harder to have kids every year. I want to have several kids, and right now it seems impossible to even have one.
Positive: I spent last week in Hawaii! It is an amazing, beautiful paradise that I got to experience with my family.
Negative: There are not any negatives to Hawaii itself. The only negative was this little bit of unhappiness creeping into my thoughts during such a beautiful week. Certain things make me hurt a little. Families with their cute kids on the beach. My own extended family members having babies. Feeling a little bit useless as a woman with no kids, no job, and no place of her own to take care of.
Someday. Right?
My plan for a while was to go to a doctor once I got back to the U.S., get a check-up, and make a game plan.
I've been in the U.S. for 3 months now and am no closer to making anything happen.
Positive: I have insurance now. It's the poor people kind for the unemployed. Basic medical care is free, but it doesn't cover everything.
Negative: It doesn't happen to cover anything related to infertility (ew I hate even typing that word). That means we can't get the ball rolling until there are paychecks coming in.
Positive: Paychecks will be coming in soon. David got a job! It's a good job with a good salary.
Negative: We have some BIG expenses coming up. We need our own place to live, another car, furniture, etc. I can't get a job in the near future. I'm getting a pretty major knee surgery in a few weeks. I won't be able to walk at all for a few months. That will also delay going to any other kind of doctor while I recover.
Positive: I'm still in my 20s.
Negative: I just had kind of a gross birthday. I'm 29. Part of the reason that number scares me is because I know from here on out it gets harder to have kids every year. I want to have several kids, and right now it seems impossible to even have one.
Positive: I spent last week in Hawaii! It is an amazing, beautiful paradise that I got to experience with my family.
Negative: There are not any negatives to Hawaii itself. The only negative was this little bit of unhappiness creeping into my thoughts during such a beautiful week. Certain things make me hurt a little. Families with their cute kids on the beach. My own extended family members having babies. Feeling a little bit useless as a woman with no kids, no job, and no place of her own to take care of.
Someday. Right?
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