We have a secret

Ahhhh... I'm pretty sure we know the gender!!!!

Now that the baby is big enough, I don't get an ultrasound at every appointment. They just do a heartbeat check with the doppler.

I realized that would mean a 6 week gap with no ultrasounds, and I didn't like the sound of that. So I found an elective, non-medical ultrasound place.

We paid for a package for 2 ultrasounds- 1 after 14 weeks where they try to find out the gender, and 1 after 25 weeks, where they can get cute 3-D pictures.

Yesterday I was 15 weeks and 3 days. It looks like the baby is close to being 6 inches long already. At first it looked we wouldn't be able to find out, because I guess our baby is modest and had their legs crossed and the cord inconveniently placed.

The ultrasound tech had me drink some cold water, get up and move around, and cough. It took 3 rounds of doing that for the baby to get in the correct position. It looked like she got a clear view and she was pretty confident. I'm 99% sure that we know now, but I'm going to wait until after the anatomy scan when the baby is bigger and a medical person is doing it to call it for sure.

I'm going to wait until then (1 more month!) to do a little gender reveal for my family. I have a cute idea involving the family puppies biting into pink or blue treats that will reveal the secret hahaha.

It's extremely hard to find joy in this process after loss and infertility, so I want to do what I can to make it fun.

Besides getting to find out that exciting news, it's always an extreme relief to see and hear their little heart beating away. Even though this early they still look a bit alien-like, it was really cool to get to see a 3-D ultrasound for the first time. We also got a video of the whole appointment, and it's nice to have a record of the baby wiggling around. 

Sucking their thumb! So cute.

The lady doing the ultrasound said they were one of the wiggliest babies that she's seen. Which explains why I'm pretty sure I've felt tiny flutters since about 13 weeks.

Last night we went out to dinner to celebrate and stopped at Buy Buy Baby. I picked out a few outfits and David picked out a few books. I felt super happy and may have cried as we were leaving the store because hope feels good.