Bébé Maybe

Another month down!!! Developments from this month- 1. There's a bump there! I noticed the first changes in my waist at around 10 weeks, but it was a lot more noticeable by 13/14 weeks. By 16 weeks, more and more of my clothes weren't fitting. I started shopping a bit for maternity clothes and it's fun. I'm excited to get bigger so I look more noticeably pregnant and not just fatter haha. Right now it's still at the point where some things I wear make me look obviously pregnant and some things can mostly hide it. 2. I'm still sick a lot of the time. I feel a little salty about the fact that last month, anytime I told anyone I was nauseous, 99% of people would reply 'You're almost past that stage!'. That was notttt the case for me. It hasn't lessened at all. Currently I'm out of commission about 3 or 4 days a week because of nausea. I'm very happy with the decision I made to stop working. I have days where it's hard to even take a show...

I was very excited to feel nauseous for the first time in October. At that time I was 6 weeks pregnant and it helped reassure me.  I really did feel a wave of happiness every time I had a wave of nausea.  Now I'm 16 weeks and still feeling a lot of nausea. I can't say I feel happy every time anymore, but I can still honestly say that I really don't mind. I'm not moping about it. In the grand scheme of things, it is not important at all. But I did have to make a difficult decision. Every day, all day nausea started when I was about 8 weeks pregnant at the beginning of November. That was during my quarantine. I had Covid but was not actually sick (beyond a mildly stuffy nose), and was SO thankful to conveniently have 2 weeks off of work just as the nausea ramped up. Naive little me thought that maybe the worst of it would be over by the time I went back to work. Lol. I went back to work the week of Thanksgiving, and since then every single day was a struggle. I did take o...

Now that I've told people that I've done IVF, I've realized that most people have no idea what it it involves or what it's like. For those who are curious, this is what it was like for me. I've done 2 full IVF cycles this year- in July and September. If you scroll back on this blog you can probably find more information (although I have a lot of posts set to private). This is just a basic summary of the different phases of the process. Ovarian Stimulation Your body usually only releases one egg per cycle. When you do IVF, you take medications that stimulate your ovaries to release as many eggs as possible at one time. The amount of time you take the medications varies according how your body reacts. It's usually between 1-2 weeks. I had 12 days of stimulation meds for both cycles. It looked like this: Follistim: 2 shots/day for the whole stim process, stimulated the ovaries Low-dose HCG: started halfway through the stim process, 1 shot/day, helped stimulate th...

 6 months to go! I just hit 12 weeks. When I put it like that, it doesn't seem very far away. Baby is now the size of a macaron. I'm so in love with the fact that I found a pregnancy app that compares baby's size to French pastries. I had my first check-up with a "normal" OB a few days ago. It's so fun to see the ultrasounds but I wish they were longer! At little check-ups like this they just quickly measure how big the baby is and check the heartbeat and that's it. A bad quality image of a bad quality image... but oh well. Baby was exactly the right size and had a strong heartbeat. I could see them so much clearer on the screen then I can in the blurry picture they print out. I want a video of them moving around! It was cool to see the differences from my last ultrasound 2 weeks ago. I could tell that their body started to catch up in size to their giant head. 10 weeks on the left and 12 weeks on the right Other recent developments are- 1. We told everyon...

After having to make the drive to Illinois about 30 times... we're done! Last Monday I had an ultrasound at 10 weeks. It was delayed by a few weeks thanks to having Covid. David was able to come in for it, which was exciting.  Everything about it went well. The baby was measuring at the perfect size, the heartbeat was strong, and they were moving around quite a bit. We even saw them wave at us with their little arm stub. We got to hear the heartbeat for the first time instead of just seeing the flicker. At the last ultrasound I could hardly see anything because it was so tiny. It was fun to actually be able to see the shape of a baby. A good check-up means that I'm done with the fertility clinic until I want my next kid. Now I need to find an OB in this area. It seems very daunting to find someone that's good enough. I'm still having a hard time celebrating. I have excited moments but it's hard to fully accept it and believe it's actually happening. David wants ...

I made it 8 months without getting Covid... not so lucky in month 9 of the pandemic. We have it! I got it at work. Which in hindsight seems inevitable considering I'm in very close proximity to other people all day (our classroom is crowded). There is still lots of good news. Neither of us was super sick. We both had one day of feeling kind of gross with a very low fever of 99 and a headache. That was followed by about a week of a mild stuffy nose. Honestly we are lucky because pretty much every cold I've ever had has been worse. It was amazing to get 2 weeks off of work. I've been so tired juggling school, doctor's appointments, and teaching dance on top of not feeling well due to medication side effects/pregnancy. The timing was also great because the time off coincided with feeling nauseous a lot of the time. I don't know how I would have handled being at work all day while trying not to throw up. Our quarantine officially ends tomorrow and it's a little bitt...

As of a few days ago on Monday, I'm considered 2 months pregnant.  Wait... let's rewind. Just over a week ago (on 11/2), when I was considered 7 weeks, I kind of saw the baby for the first time. I say kind of because it was an incredibly grainy, blurry image. I basically saw a tiny blob. The cool part was that I caught a glimpse of the flicker that's the heartbeat. That was exciting. The part that made me a little nervous (there always has to be something lol) was that it looked a little smaller than it should have. I mean, at that point the baby is only about the size of the cheerio. Apparently it's pretty hard to measure something that's that tiny, plus it wasn't positioned close to the wand so it was hard to see. That said, I have hope that the size is fine but it was just too difficult to get a clear measurement. That doesn't mean I wasn't eagerly awaiting the next ultrasound. The doctor said that if by the next one it had grown and still had a hear...