It's kind of ironic. The exit that we take to get to our clinic is at Six Flags. So I see giant roller coasters every time I go there.
Infertility and infertility treatments are absolutely a roller coaster. Here are some of my up and down emotions from this eventful week.
On Monday I felt thankful and relieved to have made it through the egg retrieval. The outcome was much better than expected. We were told to expect 3-5 eggs and we ended up with 9!
On Tuesday I felt even happier after getting the much-awaited phone call with our fertilization results. Out of the 9 eggs, 7 were mature and 6 fertilized and became embryos. That was amazing news, and again, better than expected.
I had very long work days on Wednesday and Thursday. I left home at 7:15am and wasn't done working until 8pm- all with no break.
I wasn't quite back to normal after the retrieval on Monday still in a little pain and didn't have as much energy as usual after having anesthesia. To add to that, I started progesterone shots on Monday and those cause fatigue and mess with your emotions.
By Thursday night I was DONE. Just absolutely exhausted. I couldn't even function anymore and was just crying for no reason.
On Friday I got the official word that our transfer was scheduled for Saturday. The day before and morning of our last transfer, I was extremely nervous. I felt a horrible sense of dread- partly because I was afraid it wouldn't work (it didn't) and partly because I was afraid the actual procedure would be painful (it wasn't).
This time around I felt no emotions. I never let myself feel excited as a protection mechanism. At least I felt a lot more at peace- which seemed like a good sign.
The actual procedure went fine, which I'm grateful for. The other good part was that all of our embryos are still kicking. One other one was already at blastocyst stage and ready to be frozen, and there is a decent chance a few others will make it as well.
The awful news was the quality of the embryos. The one we transferred and the one we froze both had the lowest possible grade in every category. 1CC.
The 1 is out of 6, with 1 being the lowest. The second and third categories are rated A, B, or C- with C being the lowest.
In the depressing research I've done since then, I found out that a lot of clinics just throw away embryos of that quality.
The doctor told us it was a 40% chance. I really hope that's true because that doesn't sound too bad.
I'm trying to remember that at least it's a chance. It's so hard to let myself hope because I want it so bad.
Let the 9 days of waiting begin.
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| Clinic visits from this cycle with the fun ultrasound machine. |
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| Transfer day |
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