Third time's the charm?

We're one day past our third embryo transfer.

Our first was on 7/28, and the second was exactly 7 months ago on 10/3.

I'm thankful that:

-We didn't have to go through the whole process (already had embryos).

-We were cleared to try again fairly soon.

-There were no delays (ultrasounds and hormone levels all looked good).

-The embryo thawed perfectly (sometimes embryos do not survive the thaw or survive but look "borderline").

It was definitely our best transfer experience.

I was really nervous the first one because the whole process was brand new to us. I was sick worrying and felt an awful sense of dread the day before that it wouldn't work (it didn't) or would be physically painful (it wasn't).

I felt fine before the second one but was really upset afterwards. We found out that the quality of the embryo wasn't very good and I sobbed about that as soon as we were alone (feeling increasingly desperate after a miscarriage and taking hormone medication will do that to you).

This time I felt pretty calm and much more at peace. It's certainly not guaranteed to work, but at least the process isn't new and scary now, and it feels so good to focus on something other than being depressed about our last baby.

I saw someone else suggest this online and thought it was funny... IVF would be so much better if they could just knock you unconscious between your transfer and finding out the results... that would be lovely.

The time in between the transfer and finding out the results is pretty torturous.

You find out the official results (with a blood test) 9 days after the transfer, but you can test at home sooner than that and get pretty accurate results.

For transfer #1 I waited 8 days, and for transfer #2 I waited 7. I have a feeling it will be even less this time lol. The problem is you don't want to test too early and get a false negative.

For the record, if you read this and know me in real life... please don't ask me what the results are. I have no idea how I'll be feeling and when I'll want to share (either good or bad news). Maybe it will be right away, maybe not for months. I just don't know.

Obviously it's not like it is for a normal person who has sex, takes a pregnancy test, and then celebrates. That is pretttty far from my experiences. It is not exactly celebratory for me to see a positive test. I would feel relief to have a chance, but clearly for me seeing two lines does not mean it's a done deal.

Part of me wants to just never tell anyone if I get pregnant until a living baby is actually born, but I know I don't have that kind of patience.

I've taken it easy after the transfer and I'm already a little bored. That doesn't bode well considering if I get pregnant I have to take it easy the entire time.